I want to have (i'm 14)?

When i was 8 years old my childhood friend wanted to make with me but i didn't even know what that was , i thought it was a game and the worst thing was that he was 9 years old (I DON"T EVEN KNOW WHERE HE LEARNED THAT , I MEAN HE WAS A KID) But fortunately he had no idea how to put his thing in so I'm still a virgin (LUCKY). He went in italy after a year , but I wasn't as lucky as I thought. With every year my will to have was bigger and bigger and now I'm totally horny. I just can't stop myself . HELP .